Kids always preface something bad with that line.
I broke up with BF. I got really nervous over the weekend thinking about going to Holland. I thought about us and wasn't sure if we were right for each other.
He is SUCH a great guy. So nice, kind, generous. But...I just don't know, there was something missing I guess. You know that feeling? I think you are supposed to just know when someone is the one, and I wasn't feeling it. I so wanted to, but couldn't.
So I called him (lives 4 hours away, and we both worked the next day) and told him I didn't want to go on the trip anymore. I told him why and we cried. He told his parents that night who were also shocked. If things do work out things are going to be really complicated with his family, they are so nice but I really hurt their son/brother. Then we worked the next day. Thank God for work, really helped me get through that next day.
He texts me at work and asks to come see me. I told him I would come see him the next morning. Then after work I get a text that he is on his way. So I meet him and we talk. It was sad but it was good to talk in person. I saw him the next day too and we went for a drive and a walk. Joked how every song is about love. It's true!!
Then he left. They are now all in Holland. I really hope he enjoys his trip. Things have been okay for me here. I've been keeping busy. I think a break up is a bit easier if you are long distance because you are used to having to be apart and do your own thing. I know everything will be okay either way.
I think I need some time to myself. Surround myself with friends and go out lots to figure out what I really want. I was with BF for 6.5 years. It's going to take some time to think.